Starting over.. am I really?

I look at this picture and think.. my husband is sooo handsome! Then I glance over at me.. and just get totally grossed out. Why do we do this to ourself? I think I have a pretty good outlook on life, I try to be positive, until it comes to my weight. It's like... it takes over who I am. Like, I'm less of a person because I don't exercise as much as I could. Got to retrain my brain.

Life is good. I've got to get over all of this ... geesh!

I did go to the gym on Monday, couldn't go Tuesday (i was being a good friend and brought some sunshine to someone who needed it) I couldn't go today because Cobie had a dentist appointment. You know what? I'm going to go change, and get on my bike! Like a true "fat bottom girl"!!! lol don't ya love Queen???

Tomorrow I am going to the gym.. and Friday too!

At my last girlie doctor appointment I asked bout the "lap band" the one that closes off some of your stomach... they got out the weight chart thingie that says if you are fat enough to get it.. I wasn't. Actually I was kind of disappointed. Sounded like it was something that could help me.??

I guess the natural way is best..it is the hardest way, so it must be for the best!

Chow, I'm headin' out the door before it gets too dark!

What a Week!!!!

It's over..thank goodness. finals just about did me in. I survived thou, and I am pretty happy. Mother's day this weekend, got to run to the store to get my mom a card. Gonna start this "losing weight" crap again this week. The gym was closed this week anyway.. so just gonna dust myself off and try again.
Life has been pretty rough lately. All kind of stuff, hitting me from all directions. I keep spinning around looking for the huge target on my back so I can rip it off.
Just have to remember.. trials make us stronger.. we grow. .. most important: we are being good examples to our children.

It's a typical weekend..

Welp, I did get a lot accomplished this weekend, sort of. Tim helped me take his old shop fridge to my office at work, ran some errands..bought groceries...laundry, more laundry, dishes, still to do: clean the floors, tidy up my room, and there is always, laundry. Tim is working tonight.. just like last night. 8pm-4am. Church in the morning... I have a meeting..so I've got to go in early.
Down to the nitty gritty.. I did walk the dogs today, and rode my bike.. so I did get some kind of exercise. Don't forget about that little bit of housework.. I coulda been sittin on my hiney drinking a wine cooler..
HA HA!!! Just kidding.. I just heard all the "gasps" from all my church family..hehheeee..
No dinner for me tonight.. heard your biggest meal should be in the morning.. I'm gonna try that this week. I get up at 5am to take Austin to seminary.. So I think I'll start preparing a little breakfast.. eggs.. what not. ..light lunch, like always, snacks in between,.(under 100 cal.) then maybe a slim fast shake or something for supper?? Can't hurt to give it a try. Will be shootin' for going to the gym right after work. .. most days this week. Won't be postin' tomorrow.. church and stuff.. nothin' too exciting anyway.. check back Monday.. I will be a crazy woman as it is the last week of finals.. all those lovely last minute shoppers needing to take their final, and think that they will be able to make arrangements...HA!!! oh boy. I think I'm gonna need some caffeine to survive.. :o)

Time to get it into gear..

How many times do we start out with great intentions, then fail.. horribly?? For me..this happens all the time. I almost hate to tell anyone that I am trying to lose weight because.. i know.. i am just going to fail. Why is it that I can't stay on the right path?? I am good for a week, sometimes a month.. a few times, six months. .. but gradually I quit, go back to bad habits and no exercise.
*** WHY can't I be at a healthy weight?? WHY can't I be happy with myself?? Thinking of putting on shorts.. well, it's not a pretty sight. Here I am.. I live in FLORIDA.. and my "shorts" are Capris. I just want to go into a store, and wear whatever I want... I'm sick of fat people clothes.. they are like drapes... to cover the massive bulges hanging out everywhere. I just want to be happy. I'm a productive person, I work a 40 hour work week, I manage a household with four boys and an awesome husband, I TRY and do my church calling to the best of my ability, it's not like I sit on my big ol' butt all day and cram food in my face. I've got to find a happy medium. Stop thinking I've got to be "treated" everytime I go to the gym, or NOT eat a sugary snack. I'm not a teenager anymore.. I've got to grow up. .. I hope "blogging" this won't be in vain.. but rather a springboard to my success. I can look back on this as a new beginning..::shudder:: my luck, it will end up deleted... here I go again.. This time, I want to win! Can I do it?????????

Wow, What a trip!!!

We had such a great time!! First stop was Savannah, GA.. just to get out of town and get a head start. Williamsburg, Va was next.. What a gorgeous town. Roll down the windows and it smells like bath and body works! The trees were all in full bloom, just so pretty! Our hotel was great, got two rooms to spread out. Spent two days there.. took in all the sights and ate some authentic Virginian BBQ, I'll keep the south's anyday.. it was alright, but they don't have anything on us!! Then it was off to Natalies! We all went to Washington DC there, believe it or not, we brought the hot Florida sun with us.. it was 90 degrees!! There was a cool breeze though, but it made it hard with all the walking we did! Our dogs were barkin' thats for sure! Tuesday we made our way to Philly.. that was a cool town. Not expecting much but to see the liberty bell.. But we saw so much more than that! Lots of museums, shops and tons of monuments. We took a double decker bus (the only way to go) Got lots of great pictures from there... really neat! Wednesday it was off to Pennsylvania.. we stayed in a small town called Strasburg and stayed at a neat little hotel that made the rooms out of old train cabooses! Fun :) Met up with my parents and went out to eat.. Left Thursday and headed home. Stayed over in Virgina .. Friday we were on our way home.. boy what a long ride.. stopped off in pensacola to get our dogs, then went home, didn't get there until after midnight.. it took us a while to get rested.. we are still tired!! It was such a huge blessing and a wonderful trip.. lifetime of memories.. SO very glad we did it!!

Getting ready for our trip over Spring Break!

Oh my goodness, we are so excited about our trip. We are leaving Thursday as soon as Tim gets off work. Our first stop will be Savannah, GA. We will spend the night there and be on our way to Williamsburg, VA. We will be visiting Colonial Williamsburg and Jamestown.. catchin' all the sights, taking the ferry, shopping.. should be alot of fun! We will leave Sunday and head to Dover, DE to see my best friend Natalie! We've known each other since middle school and she is one of my very dear friends. She is letting us (all six of us) stay with her for a week.. now, that's what I call friendship!! Monday and Tuesday we will be traveling back and forth to Washington DC to see the Smithsonian and the monuments. Wednesday we are going to Strasburg, PA to visit a local train museum .. spending the night at the Red Caboose Motel, check out this link:
http://www.redcaboosemotel.com/
Should be a once in a lifetime experience! lol.. Then off to Gettysburg.. where Tim has a few late ancestors who have died in the Revolutionary War!! How cool would that be to find them?? :)
We also want to "drive thru" New York, don't think we are brave enough to get out.. lol We'll see. The boys are so excited, and so are we! I will be posting BUNCHES of pictures when I get back!!

Spring...

I am ready for spring.. it has been a hard start of the new year. But, it looks like we are coming out of it alright afterall. Cobie is back to normal, still have a ton of bills, but that's why they have monthly payments. Life goes on.
Everyday I thank God for my health, it really weighs on me how important it is. I've got to start getting back to exercising, even if I don't see an immediate result. All the boys are doing well in school.. we've hit a couple of bumps along the way, but for the most part, they are doing great. We are really looking forward to our Spring Break and visiting my parents and my best friend!! She is kind(crazy) enough to let all of us stay with her up in Dover, DE. Then we will meet my folks and get to visit them as well. The boys are so excited to be going somewhere they've never seen before. It should be pretty awesome, my goal is to arrive back home with all 4 boys. :)