Time to get it into gear..

How many times do we start out with great intentions, then fail.. horribly?? For me..this happens all the time. I almost hate to tell anyone that I am trying to lose weight because.. i know.. i am just going to fail. Why is it that I can't stay on the right path?? I am good for a week, sometimes a month.. a few times, six months. .. but gradually I quit, go back to bad habits and no exercise.
*** WHY can't I be at a healthy weight?? WHY can't I be happy with myself?? Thinking of putting on shorts.. well, it's not a pretty sight. Here I am.. I live in FLORIDA.. and my "shorts" are Capris. I just want to go into a store, and wear whatever I want... I'm sick of fat people clothes.. they are like drapes... to cover the massive bulges hanging out everywhere. I just want to be happy. I'm a productive person, I work a 40 hour work week, I manage a household with four boys and an awesome husband, I TRY and do my church calling to the best of my ability, it's not like I sit on my big ol' butt all day and cram food in my face. I've got to find a happy medium. Stop thinking I've got to be "treated" everytime I go to the gym, or NOT eat a sugary snack. I'm not a teenager anymore.. I've got to grow up. .. I hope "blogging" this won't be in vain.. but rather a springboard to my success. I can look back on this as a new beginning..::shudder:: my luck, it will end up deleted... here I go again.. This time, I want to win! Can I do it?????????

Wow, What a trip!!!

We had such a great time!! First stop was Savannah, GA.. just to get out of town and get a head start. Williamsburg, Va was next.. What a gorgeous town. Roll down the windows and it smells like bath and body works! The trees were all in full bloom, just so pretty! Our hotel was great, got two rooms to spread out. Spent two days there.. took in all the sights and ate some authentic Virginian BBQ, I'll keep the south's anyday.. it was alright, but they don't have anything on us!! Then it was off to Natalies! We all went to Washington DC there, believe it or not, we brought the hot Florida sun with us.. it was 90 degrees!! There was a cool breeze though, but it made it hard with all the walking we did! Our dogs were barkin' thats for sure! Tuesday we made our way to Philly.. that was a cool town. Not expecting much but to see the liberty bell.. But we saw so much more than that! Lots of museums, shops and tons of monuments. We took a double decker bus (the only way to go) Got lots of great pictures from there... really neat! Wednesday it was off to Pennsylvania.. we stayed in a small town called Strasburg and stayed at a neat little hotel that made the rooms out of old train cabooses! Fun :) Met up with my parents and went out to eat.. Left Thursday and headed home. Stayed over in Virgina .. Friday we were on our way home.. boy what a long ride.. stopped off in pensacola to get our dogs, then went home, didn't get there until after midnight.. it took us a while to get rested.. we are still tired!! It was such a huge blessing and a wonderful trip.. lifetime of memories.. SO very glad we did it!!